Journal: Approaching 40!!!
As I inch closer to 40 I find myself going through a range of emotions. Everyone's journey is different. Everyone's story is different. Your story and your journey affects your perspective on things. I went from being petrified of turning 40 to feeling exhilarated about it. Let me explain...
Initially I was petrified because it seemed like it was happening too fast. Time seemed like it was going faster than I could accomplish my goals. Was I getting old? Well that's one way to look at it...a negative perspective. I grew tired of that spot! Why sit there and just waste even more time?
Then I grew to accept that 40 was coming whether I was ready or not. With accepting came making the decision to not focus on what I hadn't yet done, but to find the drive and enthusiasm to tackle all my outstanding action items from a place of thankfulness. I'm thankful that I'm still here. I'm thanking that I find strength and direction from the God I love and serve. I'm thankful for what I've already done that I thought I couldn't. I'm thankful that I still have today.
Now I'm just excited. I'm excited that I finally, after a long journey...I finally love me!! This is the most confident I've ever been! With all my imperfections, with all my shortcomings, with all my curves, with all the growing I still have to do, I Love Me!! I will strive to be better, do better, learn, grow and GIVE!! When I look back on life I want to see how I made this world better and how I enriched those around me. Those are the things that I will find value in and pass on to my children.
So 40...let's go!! I'll love, give and strive before you get here...and long after I pass you!
Initially I was petrified because it seemed like it was happening too fast. Time seemed like it was going faster than I could accomplish my goals. Was I getting old? Well that's one way to look at it...a negative perspective. I grew tired of that spot! Why sit there and just waste even more time?
Then I grew to accept that 40 was coming whether I was ready or not. With accepting came making the decision to not focus on what I hadn't yet done, but to find the drive and enthusiasm to tackle all my outstanding action items from a place of thankfulness. I'm thankful that I'm still here. I'm thanking that I find strength and direction from the God I love and serve. I'm thankful for what I've already done that I thought I couldn't. I'm thankful that I still have today.
Now I'm just excited. I'm excited that I finally, after a long journey...I finally love me!! This is the most confident I've ever been! With all my imperfections, with all my shortcomings, with all my curves, with all the growing I still have to do, I Love Me!! I will strive to be better, do better, learn, grow and GIVE!! When I look back on life I want to see how I made this world better and how I enriched those around me. Those are the things that I will find value in and pass on to my children.
So 40...let's go!! I'll love, give and strive before you get here...and long after I pass you!
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